Disclaimer: This is a completed yaoi lemon which means boys named Aoshi and
Kenshin kiss and fondle eachother completely therein. Poetic liscense gives
me, Nobu whatshisface, and all of you the right to spread lies about archaic
Japanese custom and the correct spelling of Aoshi's name. If some of the
events here seem off and historically incorrect to you, then they most
definitely are.
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AOSHI
It was said among the common that the heartbeat of a flea was easier to
detect than a Hitokiri who did not wish to reveal himself. The rumor pleased
Himura Kenshin for no intelligent reason. Silence ever followed the
Hitokiri, bloodshed a precarious enough affair. Swift movements, effortless
as breathing, sent the lean figure from one tile to the next in a mute flurry
of scarlet hair and robes.
Edo would sleep ignorant of the phantom dancing on her rooftops. Such
was as it should be.
He landed a small thud on the pavement, eyes scanning the silent cluster of
establishments looming side by side. The night rain had left the streets
deserted, the rooftops slick and dangerous.
I had better meet some justification for this moon jaunt.
The sun was barely risen, premature rays outlining the city in misty traces
of light, turning the air soft and hazy. It was a time he agreed with.
Reaching into a fold of his gi, he removed the tiny roll of cloth hidden
against his chest. Unraveling it, he read aloud the ink character slashed at
the bottom.
AOSHI.
The name left his lips in one short exhale. Aoshi. Pale Death. A name well
suited. He couldn't imagine why lady Misao scoured the country so
desperately for the chance to be near him. An attractive face? Surely that
could not be enough. The lady was young yet, vulnerable to the foolishness
of beauty. But Aoshi remained cold as a sliver of ice to the bright-eyed girl
who loved him. Could it be his silence that attracted? Whatever it was,
Kenshin did not see it. All the better, for Aoshi was actually requesting
his presence. He did not ask the same of others.
The invitation was silk, delivered in the hands of a young boy. Aoshi's
messenger was not the sun-darkened dwarf Yahiko was, though they were both
more or less of an age.
He was slender, his skin fair from no work in the fields, flaxen hair
kept long and tied back with foreign fabric. The boy placed the delicately
folded square in his palm ceremoniously, saying only that it bore a message
from his master. Confused but nevertheless courteous, Kenshin had accepted.
"Arigatou."
The boy hadn't left immediately, lingering in the courtyard with inquisitive
admiration on his curved his lips. Though accustomed to recognition, the
boy's gawking had made his hair bristle, the pointless smile disconcerting.
Aoshi's lackey bowed upon receiving the dismissing coin and Kenshin was
glad to be rid of him.
The night oil burned in the Dojo long after Yahiko took to bed. Kenshin
sat a great while in thought, rubbing the silk between contemplative fingers.
He would, of course, be certain Yahiko was not made aware. The youth would
act rashly whether the matter concerned him or not. In all good intention,
he would bring disaster and there had been enough of that.
He'd frowned long. Since when did Aoshi keep boys in his service? The
lad hadn't looked like one of the Oniwabanshu. He kept the same complexion as
his master, though. Like the belly of a fish, not once graced by the sun. He
hadn't thought Aoshi one to covet beautiful things, useless objects.
And what of this request? The Alley and Aoshi. He did not trust
either. A challenge, perhaps? A grim possibility. Kenshin suspected
something of the sort though Aoshi had not made a threat of himself of late.
Whatever his intention, it was clear Aoshi demanded something of him. He
decided he must find out what.
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He stopped on a narrow street, reading the name scrawled in tar beside the
gate.
Yokocho. The alley. Teahouses were no longer given antiquated Chinese nomers
like "Jade Palace of Heaven" and "Eternal Meadow's Rest". With foreigners
in every port from Hokkaido to Kyushu, it was safe to say the age of
overbearing aesthetics was fading. Teahouses were practical establishments,
best suited for indigenous names. Kenshin kicked off his sandals and gently
pushed aside the transparent shoji door.
"Gomen," he said, vaguely thinking his entrance would be noted. None
came. The structure itself was failing, his very breath seeming to start the
wood protesting. The dining room was unlit and empty, the bar cloaked in
shadow, scattered with leftover cups from the previous night's drinking.
Hand tight on the hilt, he addressed his unseen host.
"Aoshi."
"Welcome." Kenshin's eyes narrowed on a partition in the darkness,
unsure of who had spoken. The quiet familiarity of the response was
disconcerting. Warrior's instinct made him particularly wary when obscured
rooms called forth. Kenshin felt his heart accelerate.
The Okashira of the Oniwabanshu was a forward and skilled young man, he
had no taste for ambush. Besides, if this was indeed an ambush then Aoshi had
chosen a poor spot for one. Kenshin's hand remained clenched on the hilt,
his advance slow and secret. Past the bar, past the empty chairs and tables,
he brushed aside the curtain covering the frame.
The ceremonious precision of the figure halted him. An apparition of
ghastly skin and gossamer robes. No warrior knelt there but a woman. And
not a slackened farmwife or plain servant, she. This woman was an art; a
lady to be revered.
A courtesan, garbed in silk that suggested breeding. Her complexion was
pale bright as the moon, making her easily detectable in the near darkness.
Lips painted deep and red as a wet plum stood out, as did the dark green eyes
rimmed black and purple, gleaming against the stark white mask of her face.
"Aoshi?"
The seated lady nodded once and Kenshin's cheeks burned.
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The room was permeated with a lady's scent, elegant and alluring. The
coy gestures and honeyed voice of the geisha were not bestowed by nature to
all women. Their distinct mannerisms were acquired only through training,
seasoned until worthy enough to entertain rich lords or pompous diplomats.
The young man had done masterfully with his appearance but the cold decorum
lingered, giving a sharp edge to the soft candlelit smile.
The customary accessories were all present. A china tray of steaming wine
at his right, a silk fan and a chrysanthemum to the left. As tradition
demanded, Aoshi had forsaken the short blade. Still, to Kenshin's knowledge,
courtesans were not apt to hold private discourse in secluded teahouses.
Everything about it reeked of incredulity. He did not approve.
"I am honored that you responded to my invitation with such haste." Each
word left Aoshi's lips clear as a raindrop. He kept his head bowed
respectfully, sending rivulets of laughter through the tiny silver ornaments
twined in his hair. Candles on either side burned steadily in their oil
bowls, Aoshi's still form dancing on the wall behind him. Kenshin let the
partition fall with a faint sigh.
"I am not used to communicating through messengers," he said. "I came to
speak with you directly and in all sincerity, if that is your wish."
The red lips pursed slightly in amusement.
"There must be some misunderstanding." Aoshi lowered jewel-lit eyes. "I
can hardly be expected to converse with so fine a gentleman."
Kenshin let his breath go audibly. Aoshi, like many members of the upper
classes, would not likely come to the point anytime soon.
"I have no time for pleasantries, Aoshi." He stepped forward, stopping
abruptly when he noticed his hand still gripping the sword. He was not
permitted to seat himself before removing the weapon. Ignoring his open
candor, Aoshi gestured with a simple nod.
"Please."
Knowing Aoshi did not intend to be brief, Kenshin obeyed, sliding the blade
outside the partition.
"This is a facade, is it not?" He asked, gesturing to the finery
adorning the musty storeroom. Aoshi did not reply. With practiced grace he
poured the clear, fragrant sake.
"You must think me headstrong and frivolous for having addressed you
without warning." He spoke angelically, avoiding the question. How like a
courtesan! Aoshi offered him the cup as if it were a pearl.
"But I assure you my intent is nothing artful."
Kenshin accepted, but did not drink. Wine poured by an enemy was never
to be trusted and Aoshi had not yet revealed his intent. The Okashira was
receptive to his reluctance, tilting his head innocently.
"Is the wine not to your liking?" The eerie smile did not falter.
"I did not come to drink." Kenshin answered evenly, without anger. "I
came to learn your purpose."
A change passed over Aoshi's porcelain features, the thin smile trembling a
moment. Kenshin thought it strange to see him thus. He had not thought Aoshi
capable of equivocation. He tried again.
"Your servant had no information. Before I drink your wine I must know
your meaning."
Aoshi's smile softened with his sigh. He averted his eyes, placing slim, pale
hands on the floor in front of him.
"Death is the shadow that mars brilliant light," he said with rehearsed
melancholy. "So have you been dimmed." Kenshin frowned, immediately
suspicious.
"Dimmed?"
Aoshi paused, glancing up almost timidly.
"I have heard the tragic story, and wonder if I might offer myself as a
substitute for your late companion."
Kenshin tensed at these words, his heart quickening. The sake steaming in
the tiny cup burned fiercely in his hand.
"Aoshi..." he warned, his body stiffening.
"Please accept my humblest apologies for my ineptitude." The mock lady
bowed deeper, so low his white forehead nearly met the floor. "I knew the
girl."
He raised himself slightly, meeting Kenshin's eyes with bright,
magically-produced tears cutting through the film of rice powder. A thin,
crystal streak painted his cheek but his voice did not falter, only softened
like the petal of a flower.
"I was very young when I lost those dearest to me. All the years of my
life, I have had many feelings of aimlessness and futility."
A sigh stirred the candlelight.
"The Oniwabanshu filled that void for a time..." He hesitated, blinking
to send pale droplets scattering to the floor. "...though they were unfit."
Kenshin listened, stunned, wondering if Aoshi were not truly touched. This
was a man who had devoted his life to the group of misshapen warriors; the
Oniwabanshu his pride. Elaborate words and lies, candlelight and wine. None
of these things seemed as fitting with Aoshi as cold blood and steel.
Kenshin's thoughts were in disarray as Aoshi spoke again.
"It was you who took them. You were the only one worthy," His breathing
had become rapid, unbefitting the poised exterior. Kenshin felt his own
composure waver. Confusion turned rage smoldered in his chest but he could
not voice it.
"I will not be bound to weak impermanence." Aoshi extended a hand, palm
facing up, his gaze holding him with famous intensity. "You are also
undeserving of such futility."
Kenshin stared dumbly at the hand before him, silently groping for a
reaction. When he found his tongue again, he was surprised by his tone.
"Aoshi, why do you say this?" His eyes narrowed. "You speak of
impermanence, but we are all impermanent. It has naught to do with futility."
"It does." Aoshi's red lip curled in a delicate sneer. "Females in
particular. Your lady was murdered, was she not?"
Kenshin paled. His fist hardened to iron in his lap. Futile, was she?
His own sweet girl?
"They are not meant to become truly ours, the weak. We may grow a..." he
paused, as if disgusted by the word. "...fondness, but they never do outlast
us," he sighed.
Kenshin listened to Aoshi's soft poison in a daze as bile threatened his
throat, nauseating him. Never had he witnessed such a delicately-crafted
mangling. In that provocative guise, with his theatrics and wine, did Aoshi
intend to woo? Kenshin frowned.
Absurd as it was, he found it irresistable pondering the notion. He had
never not had one to protect, a weaker person to contain and make sharp his
purpose. Aoshi was neither innocent like his Lady or pitiable like his
wife--Aoshi needed no guard, could borrow no strength from him. He could
offer only permanence.
In this match, Kenshin realized he was utterly undefined.
"We share the same fate. I wonder if we might not be companions in it?"
Kenshin was startled by the question.
"I have no desire." He began then caught himself. "I...do not suffer as
you." Kenshin realized he was shaking when a warm liquid drop fell from the
cup in his palm. Aoshi retracted his hand, pressing it firmly to his throat.
"Is this so?" Slim fingers tugged gently on the folds at his collar. For
the first time he was direct, breaking the geisha's tongue.
"Tell me then, when was your last joining?" The deep blue, near-black
shoulder of the kimono slid to his elbow, baring his skin to the candle's
glow. Kenshin regretted the schooling he gave his face before replying.
"Was this your intent?" If the flint to his words affected Aoshi, he gave
no sign. The white shoulder rose and fell visibly with his breath.
"Answer!" Kenshin demanded, his eyes losing their usual roundness, bright
fury in his gaze. "A proposition?" He spat the word. "If you bore me any
love--"
Aoshi interrupted him bluntly.
"Love is but an option, Himura." He tilted his head. " Have you a taste
for it?"
"Yes." Kenshin replied without hesitation. Aoshi smiled, a slow wicked
smile. He leaned forward, so close that Kenshin could scent jasmine on his
breath. The geisha returned for a spell.
"Love, like the fermented liquor, has the ability to cloud the mind,
sweeten the eye and soften the heart. Only one causes the sharper pang when
the haze passes." He raised an eyebrow. "Do you love me?"
"No."
Aoshi lifted the flask.
"Then, drink."
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It seemed ages since he could remember why he'd obeyed. He could have
left this scene and gone home to bed. However, the first sip of sake was
wonderful and he felt this convoluted game should be played to its end.
Touched or not, Aoshi had put some considerable effort into his charade.
The wine burned, mellow and sweet in his mouth. Kenshin lowered his
head, cup still in hand, waiting for Aoshi to retrieve it. He did, refilling
it with composed poise though his shoulders were bare.
Kenshin breathed out slowly, feeling the liquor rumble with a gentle
heat in his stomach, casting a warm haze over his face. The effects of
alcohol were agreeable, making everything comfortable. Even the shabby
surroundings seemed inviting.
He sipped more of the spirits, liking the sting of it on his tongue. It
made him want to forget that Aoshi was not truly his ally. If he entertained
the illusion just enough, Aoshi was the raven-haired beauty, not a madman.
The dark green eyes and delicate slashes of hair framing his face suddenly
became things he might yearn for in someone else. He mused to himself.
Not all enemies were unpleasant to look upon.
Aoshi's porcelain doll demeanor slackened noticeably after the sixth cup
or so, though he had not taken any. It seemed he no longer felt the need to
govern himself, graceful back tilted, knees spread generously to support the
shift in posture, one hand on the floor behind him. Kenshin noted with
growing interest the open robe falling from his shoulders.
More glowing flesh, his arms no darker than the stark white of his face.
Kenshin watched Aoshi brush absently at his throat, an itch perhaps? The
whisper of muscle under the silk was engaging and Aoshi seemed quite aware.
Kenshin bit his lip a little, lowering his eyes to Aoshi's smile, refusing to
see the intended subtlety in the gesture.
The geisha was gazing intently at him, rubbing a finger gently along
the pale indentation beneath his collar; the flat, smooth area that shielded
the heart. He was abominably desirable. He cleared his throat.
"The sun will rise within the hour," he began.
"Must you go with it?" Aoshi sighed, head tilted coquettishly. Silent
once more, he shifted to the balls of his feet with a nimble movement, the
silk opening at his chest falling indecently as he did so.
His knees were drawn up and parted in Kenshin's direction, squatting
rather than kneeling as he had been before. One hand rested lax on his thigh,
dipping slightly into the crevice, his other arm a pillar behind him. Kenshin
swallowed.
Geisha, tho artists, were not known to wear undergarments.
Unintentionally, his eyes traveled to the semi-obscured realm between Aoshi's
thighs. Something pale flashed briefly in the dark space, partially cloaked
by the robe. Aoshi's sex beckoned with the barely perceptible sway of his
body.
"We will not need an hour."
White skin drenched in dust and firelight, and it was being offered. Playful
gestures, clever wit, refined skill and liquor were not the lady's only
assets. It was the geisha's duty to make her client feel special; unique and
unlike himself. He knew what Aoshi wanted.
The small room was cooled by night but he felt flushed and aroused.
Such stirrings he had dealt with before. The old days had made indulgence a
taboo, a burning distraction in the line of duty. He had been younger then
and considerably harder to control. The heads of the Ishinshi-shi had been
wise not to neglect such matters.
Aggressive sexual activity was not unheard of, especially among the
younger Hitokiri. But they were extremely dangerous in attracting attention.
The Batthousai was no exception. Were he to give in to the desperation in his
blood, the results would be disastrous. Thus, he was offered by his superiors
many outlets through which to appease the urging. Expensive gaishou, mostly
young and some skilled, had been led quaking to his chambers.
Flesh molded, fingered and battered by the nobility that afforded it.
Even young boys, reared to perfection by elite masters, had been acquired
when the girls became dull and less enticing. It had been the women who
taught him, amused at first by his lack of experience and later left
shuddering on the floor when it was through, occasionally bruised by his
clumsiness.
He'd learned to ease the natural ache of want through contact, finding
release in the soft skin of the young men, their whimpers like music in his
ears. Need was beauty, helplessness and vulnerability all at his command.
The Hitokiri Batthousai had not been renounced on weak ground. As the
ruroni, exquisite displays of power were no longer his to indulge. He was
just a wanderer in rags. Subdued, degraded and repentant.
He realized he knew little of Aoshi's method when it came to joining but
he was accustomed to the presentation. Sophisticated but not pure; prim and
full of want. He saw Aoshi's lips were working, anxious and brilliantly
colored, reminding him of blood on snow. Their fidgeting made him want to
feel their texture on his skin, have that scarlet grease smeared over his
shoulders...
"Very well," he set down the empty cup, a slow change to his calm voice.
"But if this is deceit, I will not need a blade to make you regret it."
Aoshi's nod sealed his silent promise. Kenshin let the gi fall to his
waist with a shrug, muscles tense in the soft light. The stale coolness of
the storeroom met his skin in a rush, barely cutting the warmth spreading
rapidly over his shoulders and chest. Perhaps the perfume was to blame? A
poorly suppressed sound came from Aoshi, waiting before him.
"You are wondrous...!"
Kenshin's lip twitched a half smile, the wine-flush in his cheeks deepening
down his throat.
"Flattery is the sweetest invitation to the bedchamber, Aoshi. I know
not why, but I accept."
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Keeping a dull blade had kept the peace. Guarding an innocent girl had kept
him sane, projecting upon her all of his good--no, noble intentions. But
nothing compared to joining. As the ruronin, such a display would have
resulted in reproach.
With the lady, a fool played his part, charm and vulnerability both his
assets. She would have demanded courting, a soft prelude to the biting
teeth and devouring hands. But the alley had little use for ceremony.
Aoshi's facade had quickly turned farce.
Aoshi urged forward, meeting his desire on his knees, eager and
suddenly arresting. Kenshin felt himself recoil with a short gasp as Aoshi's
fingers played up the length of his arm, his mouth closing over his. He had
experienced sex often enough, the violent art of it, but he had never tried
the exotic practice of touching mouths that had been brought to Japan by the
barbarians. The slippery wetness of Aoshi's lips repelled him, warm and
malleable in his mouth.
"It won't hurt." Aoshi murmured, his breath warm against his lips. He
tried again and Kenshin closed his eyes. Gradually, he became better
accustomed to the feel. Desire overcame curiosity and he opened his mouth to
admit Aoshi's gentle, probing tongue. Kenshin soon began to breathe deep
into his mouth, stifling a moan.
Who would have thought this slow, moist exchange could be so arousing?
Perhaps his homeland could afford to absorb a thing or two from hairy
foreigners. Yet when cold hands found his back, clutching his shoulders in
earnest, Kenshin fell entirely victim to a helplessness beyond memory. His
eyelids twitched, the beautiful, terrible sensation replaced by the hot
reality of Aoshi's lips, tongue and teeth. He faltered, pulled away.
"Have I displeased you?" Aoshi's breath was strong but his voice came
reasonably steady.
"No." Kenshin said, touching a fingertip to his own lips. He retracted it
smeared an oily pink. When he looked up, he saw that Aoshi's mouth and
cheeks were smudged with the violent red, as if he had hastily drunk rich
cordial. Aoshi gestured with a pale hand, one painted brow arched.
"More?"
Kenshin placed both hands on the floor. Swaying slightly, he turned his back
on his waiting mistress, unlacing his hakama. His fingers worked swiftly and
he wondered vaguely at his haste. How many nights had passed since he'd
last seen his Lady, warm and alive; breathed in her delicate scent when he'd
touched her hair? Heaven knew he wanted that again, though he'd not expected
to seek it in this painted devil. Or whatever Aoshi had contrived to pass
himself off as.
With a final tug the garment fluttered to a heap around his ankles, his
gi also discarded. He kicked them away, turning his nakedness to Aoshi's
patient gaze.
"I am pleased," was all he said. Was there as dusting slightly darker
spreading across his china face? The younger man shifted in agitation as
Kenshin knelt before him, reaching inside the folds of Aoshi's robe to touch
him. Aoshi's flesh was unbelievably soft, still and perfect beneath the
cool fabric.
He had always considered the kimono a masterfully contrived garment.
Delicate and secretive, the intricate folds did not serve merely as covering,
a simple cloth with which to hide a lady's shame. It was, rather, a work of
art, exalting the body within to something finer. Like a gift bound in paper
of silk and fragile thread to be opened with care...or torn away.
"Ah -"
He felt Aoshi inhale deeply as his fingers brushed the flat hardness of
his stomach, satisfied when he felt the smooth muscles jerk in response.
Aoshi reached up, grasped the long red hair in a fist, slowly pulled
Kenshin's head forward to rest on his shoulder. Kenshin made a soft noise,
biting gently at the powdered neck.
The hair was dark, and soft, and tickled at Kenshin's face, scented, like
a woman's - but were it a woman, there would be those soft, agitated noises.
Unladylike to cry out, but feminine etiquette demanded response, audible
encouragement. Hands moved slowly across smooth muscle, and arms encircled
silence. No, no woman this...
Kenshin smiled into the pearl flesh. In the erratic darkness, black hair
gleamed and painted lips parted. The girl's picture fluttered in his mind:
he allowed his eyes their falsehoods.
Wine was, indeed, a marvel. It had made Shinomori Aoshi beautiful. The
thought made the pulse below ache worse. Kenshin reached down, past the silk,
into Aoshi's corresponding darkness.
Aoshi's body tensed, his breath quickening as Kenshin's fingers touched
the warmth there. There was something sticky on his thighs; more on his
hardening sex. Kenshin was quietly surprised.
Curious, he brought his hand to his lips. The sharp scent of Aoshi's
body lingered there, perfume and desire, and blended with another fragrance.
Like clover. Kenshin swiped his tongue along his index finger.
Honey.
Aoshi reached up, drawing Kenshin's hand to his own lips, tracing his
tongue slowly over the sticky drops that had collected on the back of it.
Kenshin suppressed a smirk.
"You've no good in your mind," he admonished.
"No," Aoshi agreed softly.
Kenshin watched him, staring through the light mental cloud of sake-haze that
made the motions seem too easy, too fluid... cool hands swept the dripping
silk from white shoulders, spread it in a rippling pool on the floor, pressed
upon his own shoulders, pushing Kenshin down onto it.
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As he drew closer, Kenshin spotted more signs of Aoshi's true sex. The
long graceful hands which aroused him, white with the same powder that
covered his face, had larger knuckles and bony wrists. His features, though
delicate, lacked the softness of a woman's. His motions, deft and sure as a
warrior's, were not the hesitant caresses of a lady. They sank to the floor
together, Aoshi's body pressed to his with an ardor that surprised him.
Green eyes, liquid and luminous, fluttered closed as Kenshin returned his
gestures. Fingers played across the bare skin of his back, grasping a thigh,
squeezing intimate flesh, their movements rushed and eager.
No. No woman, this.
He took first his eye's focus, tasting the wet lips tentatively,
awkwardly before parting them with his tongue. The act was wonderful in its
strangeness, even daring. Aoshi was warm and sweet, something faintly spicy
coating his mouth. He found he liked the taste, savoring it with the kiss,
wanting more until his lungs ached.
The attention of mouth and hand were stifling, heat and the pleasant
ache usurping his senses. Perhaps this was a trap and perhaps Aoshi could not
be trusted. But unless he was very much mistaken, Aoshi's sighs and
arching back were not mere theatrics. He saw no cold mechanics in the way
Aoshi's fingers moved across his chest, lightly grasping his sex. He was
made to turn over, Aoshi's pale arms encircling his waist, deft hands still
occupied between his legs. It was already too much when Aoshi's erection
nudged the back of his thigh. There came a pain so exquisite he had no
sound for it. Then Kenshin stopped thinking altogether.
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They lay among the disarray a long while after breaths slowed and
flushes receded. Kenshin's clothes were scattered about the floor, the
overturned sake seeping into the wood, masking the stronger human scents.
The cadence of Aoshi's heart mingled unevenly with his breathing, a damp,
powdered cheek resting in the hollow of his throat. He awoke thinking.
Himura Kenshin easy prey? Surely not. Seduction came easy with the aid
of good wine and fair skin. Aoshi had played the part well, there could be
no denying that and he had enjoyed himself. But he would not be made to pay
for what was given freely.
He traced a thoughtful finger across Aoshi's sleeping lips. He knew
Aoshi was alone. A legend in a world of lesser beings. He had been raised to
see things thus, reared by the elite for the elite. Such a thing was not
wholly wrong. But this man who scorned innocence, mocked love even in
ecstasy? He could be no part of it.
There was no affection or regard in this proposal -- this arrangement
would be merely that, an arrangement, between two who were equally and
conveniently indestructible. Aoshi's beauty was hollow, made more so by his
inability to recognize the hollowness. Sincere in its emptiness which was
the worst thing of all. Yet he had been convincing....extremely so.
Aoshi's weight was suddenly very heavy.
He stirred beneath the sleeping body, raising himself carefully. Aoshi did
not wake, sliding easily back into the silk robes spread on the floor.
Voices of early sunrise echoed from outside, a cool breeze wafting over his
soiled body, refreshing as pure water. He bent to pick up his crumpled gi,
slinging it over his shoulder as he laced the worn hakama. The cloth smelled
like a hundred years of floundering.
He found his purse and fished out a few golden ryu. He placed them
gently in Aoshi's outstretched palm, curling his fingers around the coins.
I can indulge but heretically. I choose not to be your salvation.
Kenshin gave the sleeping figure a formal bow.
"What you seek," he murmured. "Do not look for it in me."
He left.
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Gold burst against the wall in a hard glittering explosion, flung from his
hand like dirty water. Aoshi watched his fee roll and scatter on the floor,
breathing fast, disgust contorting his elegant features. He wrapped the
used silk haphazardly around his body at the sound of footsteps and knelt.
"Customers in. You out." The proprietress jerked her withered stump of a
thumb behind her. Aoshi saw through the partition the teahouse regulars
assembling themselves, his pale little messenger bent on hands and knees,
scrubbing the floors with ash on his face. The proprietesses's bare brow
lifted at the gold and demanded half. He thought about how little it would
take to snap her twiglike neck and it calmed him. Did the sun dim at a gnat
who buzzed in its rays?
"Yes."
She left with rough words. Alone again he rose, letting the robe fall from
his shoulders. He paced, kicking aside the discarded remains of the previous
night, the silk fan strewn carelessly askew, the crushed flower, the silver
bells ripped from his hair.
He knelt by a bucket in the corner, streaking a wet hand across dry lips
and cheeks, like a tired lady attending her toilette. Water mixed with the
powder, milky drops cutting pale lines across his throat. What he had taken
pains to create, his prize had used and then abandoned. Fool! There had
been a grave underestimation. After all it took arrogance, enormous
arrogance, to believe he could will the destiny of another with eyes and
lips.
Silently, wrathfully, Aoshi gathered his clothes.